Thursday..later

Haha i love Ebay, just won a corset i've wanted for such a long time and for a total of 12 pounds too, WITH shipping! Too bad that i won't get to see it untill i get home in about 6-7 weeks. Same with that pink heart Playboy necklace i ordered before i whent.

Ebay is my religion! (But that's old news.)

Thursday

YES! Got a B as a final grade in my socialsciences course. I've been hyped about it since she told me yesturday morning. Whent to Ross yesturday again to look for the evenning dress i need for the opera on saturday, we're gonna watch Tosca at the LAOpera.
I found a gorgeous green satin dress at Ross for only 20$! Haven't had the chance to take a picture yet but i plan to when i'm all dressed up on saturday with my hair done and all. I also bought some clothing tape for the dress, matching earings and a pair of pink ballerina slippers. Haha AND a huge pink luggage bag, it was on sale and i have a feeling that if i keep buying shoes in my current pace i will need bigger luggage.

Monday

Today is Memorial day, it's been a loong weekend. On saturday we whent to the LACMA museum, they had a jazz consert in the evening. Yesturday we made plans to go to the planitarium but those where ruined by the weather, we whent downtown to buy tickets to the opera for next weekend. After that we whent home, made sushi and watched a movie.
Yesturday evening i finished my last assigment for the socialscienses course. I have a good chance of getting a B in the course if i write another small assigment.
Not much to write right now since not much is happening.

Wednesday

I've been rewatching The O.C. lateley. And i'm starting to find places i actually recognize now that i live here. For instance season 2 ep. 17 where they show Balboa island, which is like in Newport, now that they show it in the episode i se that took the exact same picture of it. They also mention it several times on the show. It's kinda cool seeing stuff u are used to see on tv. I also live kinda close to the Flynt publications building, it looks exactly the same as in the movie about Larry Flynt, have to photograph it. And the Beverly Wilshire hotel where Gere stays in Pretty Woman that is on Wilshire blv next to Beverly Hills and Rodeo Dr. (Next to which i live.) Pic on the right is a screencap fron The O.C. and the one on the left is the one i took of Balboa Island.

Sunday

Yesturday was awsome, i totally love my relatives...or whatever they are, Anya is so nice and we kinda connect on alot of levels. On our way to Malibu we stopped at the Lake Shrine, which was beautiful, it's a shrine to the five world religions, and it's said to have a small part of Ghandi's ashes.
Then we went to Pepperdine University..haha i know the name is funny, but the place is beautiful. It's located on the hills above Malibu beach and the view is awsome! After that we went to my beloved Santa Monica Blv. and had crepes at the Paris cafe, which reminded me of when me and mom had them in Monmartre in Paris years ago, soo cozy!



After that we took a ride thrue Rodeo Drive, which is right next to Beverly Hills, which is right next to where we live. After that we went to a shopping plaza called The Grove (http://www.thegrovela.com/) and it's so nice in the evening with all the lights. I found the Michael Kors store there. The place is full of rich teenage girls with Louis Vuitton bags, my american dream! And i of course i had to buy a bag.

Friday

Since our weekends aren't consistent, plans naturally have to change the day before they are to be executed. Today was hot, about 36 c degrees, so i stayed home all day. We had a nice dinner in the evening with candles and after that rosé wine with strawberries on the balcony, very cozy.
Tomorrow i'm finally meeting my grandma's housband's...ehm niece...? Dunno anymore but nevermind she's nice so it doesen't matter how we're related. They wanna go to Malibu which is awsome since all of The O.C. was filmed there and i know exactly where all the houses are! If we have time i'm gonna find the one that Caleb buys Julie in the end of season 1, i love that house...mansion...castle..?
In real life the house belongs to former NFL star Brian Bosworth. It's a wooping 11,000 square feet!! And like my future home or somthing! We are also going to the beach, i mean i can't go to Malibu and NOT work on my tan...that whuld be sacrelige. No but seriously i need to relax.

Thursday again

Downtown L.A. seen from the freeway.


Was in Little Tokyo downtown on sunday and took a few pics, it was in the evening so not many good ones. I'll try to do better next time. (And i'm definitly going again, love that place!)

Thursday

Long week, it's been like 26-30 c all week and i haven't even been out of the house that much. I'm glad tomorrow's friday. On monday i've been here a month, have to celebrate...or not. Saturday i'm finnaly going to Newport beach to just relax and take in alittle sun. I'm also starting to sound like the local Beverly Hills housewives for some reason, haha i've been here to long. But the funny thing is that right now i AM a Beverly Hills housewife...well technically speaking.
I recently discoverd that Britney and i are almost neighbours, haha thats a funny developement, not that i have the time to stalk her or anything, or the will for that matter.
Met the mom of Alisas friend in the park yesturday, she wasen't as stuck up as i thought, and invited us to the park again today so the kids can play together, that's good for me, that way she has someone to play with.

Bravery - Believe

The faces all around me they don't smile they just crack
Waiting for our ship to come but our ships not coming back
We do have time like pennies in a jar
What are we saving for

There's a smell of stale feeling that's drinking from my skins
The drinking never stops because the drink absolves our sins
We sit and throw our roots into the floor
What are we waiting for

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breathe
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

Something's always coming you can hear it in the ground
It swells into the air
With the rising
Rising sound
And never comes but shakes the boards and rattles all the doors
What are we waiting for

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breath
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

I am hiding from some beast
But the beast was always here
Watching without eyes
Because the beast is just my fear
That I am just nothing
Now its just what I've become
What am I waiting for
Its already done

Can't say it better if i tried...somehow that sums upp my feelings right now even though i can't fully explain the meaning, but it feels right.

Sunday

Ok plans went down the drain! We whent to Newport on saturday to some boring party in a park, but after that we went to Balboa island, which was beautiful and cozy, with beautiful houses on the beach.
Today started with a quick tripp down the street to Ross, i wasen't gonna buy anything since we went to exchange Tina's shoes. But i found the hottest boots ever and she insisted on buying them for me since they where only 10$!!! They are extremly high but surprisingly comfortable.
We also had coffe at Coffee Bean across the road. After that we desided we whould go to Santa Monica (my second home) and walk on the beach. Santa Monica reminds me of Santa Carla (the real Santa Cruz) in Lost Boys, with the ferris weel and all on the pier. Mabe that's the reason i love it so much and feel so at home there becouse acording to me it's a cozy movie. After the wonderfull beach walk we went to downtown L.A. to go to Little Tokyo, haha now that's really a place where i'd like to live, and it's kinda cheap too. It's built like a plaza with stores and restaurants, and it even has the Japanese lanterns on the trees. We had sushi there but i'm coming back to raid the shopps. PS. Roy if you come here i'll take you there, you'll looove it!

Friday

Tinas operasion went good, i think, all things considerd she is doing better than i imagined. Hope she feels even better tomorrow. Plans for tomorrow are uncertain, all depends on the weather, but considering the weather is gonna be, acording to CNN, about 20 c and cloudy. (Yeah it gets chilly in L.A. too) But it looks like the trip to O.C. is off, at least for now.
So we haven't desided what to do instead yet.

Feeling alittle bored, allthough i shuldent be since i shuld be writong my assigment which is due on sunday...Swedish time. I've done like half of it and was planing to finish it tomorrow.

I'm finally noticing exactly how hard it is to have a long distance relationship. It's painfull and more timedemanding than a normal one where you fight a number of times a day about tiny things none of you notice because they are natural everyday things that need to be argued about, and having a 30 second argument about them makes them go away in about 45 seconds, and then you move on. But put an ocean between all of this and things become much more complicated, you don't have the same 30 seconds to argue about trivial things. The end result is that you squeeze in both the trivial and important events of the day into one hour long blur along with all the other things you need and want to say to each other. It becomes a constant struggle between being angry, blowing it out of proportion and making up partly because you have to and because you miss each other and don't want to waste that short hour on fights.

In concluion the distance makes you not see things clearly and sometimes makes you lose track of whats important in the end. The important thing is to focus you'r sight on the bigger picture and the love that's still there despite the ocean and thousands of miles. In the end all you can do is hope that it's enough to get you thrue it.
PS. I love you Roy!

Tuesday

Been swamped today, had the earge to clean the apartament, and did. Kinda tired, gonna shower soon. New plans for the weekend, i finnaly called my grandma's friend and she invited me to go to Orange County during the weekend, that will be fun.

Somthing wierd happend yesturday; one of the many reasons i love L.A. is for it's many gardens...and gardeners. They are everywhere and on my way from UCLA yesturday i ran into one. He was walking towards me with a hose (i know cliche) and then he smiled at me with a sort of knowing smile and obviously thinking somthing dirrty, and suddenly i couldent hold it in...i blushed!! I still can't belive it, i NEVER blush! Especially not for some tightassed, selfassured latino gardener boy! I was so cought off guard by my reaction that i stayed in a state of chock the whole way home but God i wanted to do bad things to that cocky boy. (Still kinda do.)
It's not that he was gorgeous...although he was..it was the way he looked at me like he saw my thoughts. It still enoys me like shit that i let myself react that way. But whatever.

Monday

Nothing much has hapened today, so not much to write about. I have this strong urge to go out at night becouse i'm such a huge fan of the lost boys, and the video that 69 eyes made for the movie was shot in L.A. or Sunset strip to be exact. I love it there, there are so many referances to it and there is a famous bar there called the Rainbow bar that all the rock stars used to frequent in the 90's and still do today. It's one of Bam's fave places (Bam Margera directed the video) that's why he shot the video there, the place is famous.

Haven't called any relatives yet, i've just been swamped this weekend.
Another strange thing is that i've started sleeping with my ipod on, i never used to do that before unless i was depressed and the thoughts in my head became unbearable. Don't know why i've started doing it here...
Hope to drag Tina to that gothic club i've found on the 101 (highway), haha she seams interested to go. We'll see if we can dump the kids on Danka some night.

Santa monica somehow reminds me of Santa Cruz where Lost boys was filmed...i think it's the shore and the amusement park...

Venice

Beautiful Venice beach at sunset! (Still under the influence...)

Saturday/Sunday

Ok writing at night, and mabe alittle drunk. We had some champagne this evening after going to Venice beach, it was beautiful to see the sunset from the long pier, the sun dissapered behind the mountains.
Me and Tina finnaly went shopping together today, it was extremly fortunate because i bought the most gorgeous Calvin Klein suit, a pair of matching heels, training pants and two bags.


The pic on the left is me before going to Venice with Lost boys by 69 Eyes looping on the ipod for the second day now!

Friday

Danka was home today too cuz he crashed his car yesturday, not alot and it wasen't his fault, but he diden't have time to pic up the rental this morning since he has to leave for work at 6.00 am if he is to make it in time, and the rental company opens at 8.00 am so he desided it wasen't worth going. (It takes about 1.5 h for him to get to work if there is trafic.)
So again i got a day off. I ofcourse chose to waste it on shopping...again.
I went to Ross, the designer discount store around the corner and bought the following...a black dress, black flipflops, (sooo comfortable) Esprit sunglasses and a Guess necklace.

Thursday

Today danil is home so i get a day off, went to Starbucks with Tina on her way to work, then i walked to the old UCLA campus which is beautiful. I also went in to the UCLA store to buy that hoodie i've wanted, i'ts soo soft and cozy, i also bought a keychain there. After that i desided to go to Bebe where they had a 65% sale just for today, the sales people there are soo nice and one of them helped me pick out an outfit that was a total of 94$. (Aperantly my ass is a size 4 and my boobs are a size 6, wierd.)
After that i went to Victoria's secret, where i've been wanting to go for like ever, and got mesured for the first time in my life, aperantly i'm a 24DD (60DD eur i think.) haha i guess i should be proud or somthing, anyway i fell in love with the Angel bra that molds after my shape and also my body temrature. It's totaly fabulous! We also bought shampoo and style cream there a couple of days ago and they are really good and smell nice!

Wednesday

Ok, have been to tired to update. Aperantly i have alot of relatives here in L.A. that i diden't even know about. For instance my grandmother from my fathers side has a sister that comes here alot, i've never met her and her family so we've desded to meet. She and her sons wife seams to have alot in comon with me, haha we all love shopping and they go to Rodeo drive frequently. She also has a daughter and a granddaghter. (My second cousin?) Dident know i had any. Also my grandmother has an oncle and his wife that live here and are eagre to meet me. My grandmothers husband, (lives in Russia and isen't my real grandfather but i've known him since i was little) has a niece that my grandmother loves alot, and she also lives in L.A. and acording to my grandma' she is a very cozy person. =)
Can't wait to meet everyone, since i'm a family person myself, and i don't have that many relatives so i'm really happy for the ones i do have.
My grandmother might even be coming here herself from Boston or i might fly to New York since i have a free ticket.

Oh well update later on all the relatives! (PS. Still looove the palm trees and the sqirrles!)