Friday

Long night...long day. Had my last test in the natural sciences tonight. Phew it was nerve wracking, i'm glad it's over. Today is Margarita-day, i'm making Margaritas for everyone to celebrate the end of my course...and to get smashed in general, you never really need a reason for that! ;P
Planning to go to Melrose and Hollywood tomorrow and mabe go thrue Rodeo Drive since it's on the way. Mabe beach on sunday? Dunno haven't planned it yet. Also wanna go to little Osaka again.
Have a bunch of stuff to photograph for this blog but i've just been too lazy, and had too much work this week. Hoping to catch up on the pic's this weekend.

Tuesday

Whent on a big walk today around UCLA and Wilshire boulevard, came about a third of the way to West hollywood and Sunset Blv. Considering we live in Westwood next to UCLA i think thats a good walk. (With a baby stroller) Thought i'd post a map of L.A. just to track it.

Monday

Still hate mondays....
Yesturday was fun, we went back to the mall for the videogame tournament. It was so fun and they are so nice there, it was kinda intimate and not that many people, a very friendly atmosphere. They have those tournaments every week so we're going back next weekend. They even suggested that i come drunk next time so i can play too. (I tend to win at videogames when i'm drunk) After that we shoppes some at the mall, sneakers for me and some stuff at hot topic.
We finally found the little Osaka distrikt that is at a alking distance from the house. It was awsome, had all kinds of stores and LOADS of cute stuff, i got tired of aaw-ing! We shopped some at a Japanese food market too and bought cute cell phone straps. ( Which is a must at a Japanese store) Local Japanese say it has the same atmasphere as Japan. Going back there tonight i think. But i also have to go to Ross to buy some presents for mom and grandma.

Saturday

Whent to Santa Monica today, did a little shopping. Then mall, power anime store that i've wanted to go to for two months and that i wanted to show to baby, so we bought a biiiig Kirby there, cutest thing ever. The girl who worked there was a devoted fan and even had a Kirby tatoo on her hip.
It was awsome!
Going back there tomorrow cuz they have some sort of tournament. Neeerd stuff but oh so cute.

Friday

Today is a particularly slow day since i'm waiting for it to end. Royski flyes in at 12:22 pm, 7 minutes earlier than sceduled and i can't wait to see him. Yesturday was cleaning day, mainly so that we don't have to do it during the weekend. It felt kinda good to clean the apartament, i always feel so satisfied when it's done, i guess it's kinda theraputic. Not much happening today...yet. Thaught we'd go to Santa Monica during the weekend, or downtown to little Tokyo. Well somthing fun anyway.

I guess uppdates later..?

Monday

God knows i hate mondays, but thankfully baby is coming at the end of the week. Still depressed that i'm leaving, the perfect scenario whuld be staying here until october and going to Sydney from here, and having my lugage fedexed there. I am now seriously considering going to Santa Monica college for one or two years and then transfering to Berkeley NY to finish my degree. (Studying 4 years in total) They have a 100% transfer rate between the two colleges so that won't be a problem. Gonna go to Santa Monica some time in the coming weeks to get all the info and a catalogue. In general i miss my muffin and i wanna shop...well i did alittle shopping the other day, bought a gorgeous Nine West wallet, it's the perfect size!

Saturday night

Just came back from the BBQ party and it was sooo awsome, love those people. The guy whose 60:th birthday it was, had his son and niece there, and i loved talking to them, his son is a marine and just got back from a year in Irak, even though he doesen't support the war. He told me he had ten months left and after that he was going to college in San Diego. He was soo nice talking to, it's rare to fina a person that you can really talk to, about anything. They also have the cutest pit bull, i'm completly in love with that dog, he sounds like Darth Vader! I ended up scratching him half the night, we're buddies now him and me.
They have a little house in Riverside and a view on a mountain, on which they have fireworks on the 4:th of July. But i'm planing to watch the fireworks in Beverly Hills from Hugh Hefners mansion, since he's the only civilian in all of L.A. that has a fireworks permit and has awsome fireworks every year. Haven't figured out exactly where i'm gonna be yet but i'll see if i can see them from our rooftop. I'd really like to go to Riverside but that will be hard if Boyfriend is here since we don't have enough room in the car, there is a train going but i think i'm to lazy to take it.
Oh well we will see i guess.

The thing is that i love it here, i have no words to describe it but i wanna stay here and go to Santa Monica college, and then transfer to Berkeley NY after 2 years so that i can be here the first two years. Australia is gonna be awsome but i really wanna live here or in New York...i guess i have some time left to decide.

Anyway the party was awsome and i got to try a shot of whisky with the son of the birthday-man =P we had fun and i hope to see them again soon.

Friday

Ok, so i'm messed up, tomorrow is the b-day party and next sunday we're going to the beach party. Alot to keep track of...
Haven't decided what to wear yet, but i'm thinking jeans a and a cute top tomorrow and my pink bikini with the suuuuuuper short black Von Dutch skirt and a tube top to the beach party. Come to think of it Roy is probably gonna be here in time for the beach party next week, that will be a nice start of you'r tripp babe! Can't wait!
All the homework finished for this week so it's party time!!
And i have my last assigment next week and after that this course ends and i don't have another one until August. So next sunday i'm really gonna party for several reasons!

Oh well, time for my beauty sleep!

XOXO!

Thursday

Busy week, have a day off tomorrow..kinda. Danil is taking the kids to the doctor for a checkup and i get to stay home and finish reading my book. Can't wait till' saturday, cuz we're going to a beach party in Newport or Riverside dunno what the beach is called yet. I finnaly get to work on my now already existing, kinda dark tan. Hardly recognize myself this taned. And another strange thing is that people keep asking me for directions...but that's not the strange thing, the strange thing is that i can actually give them to people! I'm becoming a local.

Can't wait till' the 20:th cuz my baby is coming!

Monday

So diet is off for now, or untill i get home, since i'm just to tired to do it in my current hectic situation. Miss my baby and hope he joines me here soon, he's suposed to come June 20:th.
I'm currently out of money and don't even have time to go shopping so i guess that's good. (Being to busy to shop, not the absence of money part, thet's never good.)
Bought a stuffed animal to keep me company yesturday, saw it at Ralph's and just coulden't NOT buy it, he now sleeps loyally on my pillow. Gonna try to go down to Santa Monica beach next weekend to get a tan. Am in general swamped with school untill the 20:th, so i'm kinda tired and don't always have time to uppdate the blog. Life is proceding as always and i'm stressed out about school...as always. I hope some things never change, but on the other hand other things have to change. (I'm working on that.)

Still a few things i wanna buy and a few pounds i wanna loose. Although yesturday i got into a pair of capri jeans that where a size to small for me a month ago so i guess that's somthing to be perky about.

I am also feeling frustrated becouse i have no idea what's gonna happen to my life, i'm at a transitional phase and it scares the shit out of me. I guess it's normal but i am just so confused. On one hand i love it here L.A. is my kind of place and i'd love to one day plan a party at the Playboy mansion, but right now all i seem to wanna do is go home to Roy and my family. (And friends of cource.) I just wanna hide in our room and chill all day like we did before i left, but i know we can't do that since we're grownups now and have to take responsibility. I know i have to start living and get a job, an education and a career, and i want to, i long for all that. But i'm also scared to fail, and have always been. I'm scared of changing and not being the same person anymore or not wanting the same things. But on the other hand i wanna change, for the better, evolve and dare to take chanses.

I'm not sure what i'm gonna do when i get home, on one hand i wanna be with my family and friends and just chill, while i still can, but on the other i'm not sure i wanna see anyone, i'm afraid, dunno of what exactly. I'm somehow ashamed i will have changed. All i wanna do is study to secure my college education and work my ass of in school. I know i have to make sacrifices to get where i want and i'm ready to make them. Right now it just feels like i'm waiting for my life to start, even here in the heart of L.A. it doesen't feel like i'm living it up as i shuld, i'm just drifting, waiting for somthing to happen. I can't bring myself to have fun in the proces. But the "proces" is another 5 years atleast, so i have to try otherwise i'm going to miss out on things. I mean i'm gonna have to work all my life to get the things i want, am i never gonna have fun? I'm not really sure what i'm whaiting for...but i wanna start living. I wanna be preppy and happy like i used to be, and yes i like the "Girls of the Playboy mansion" series, and i'm blonde and have big boobs, (Real ones.) and some days i wear all black, but that's not all of me, there are other sides, i just get frustrated that i have to be judged by what i appear like and there is nothing i can do about that. I'm confused and afraid that feeling will never pass...

Thursday June 5:th

Havent had time to update in a while now. But i've desided to go on the Master Cleanser diet, or it's not really a diet, it's actually a fast. I feel i need to make an official change in my life, since i'm going off to college and all.

So this is what the diet/fast consists of:

2 Tablespoons lemon or limejuice (approx. ½ lemon)
2 Tablespoons genuine maple syrup (Not maple flavored sugar syrup)
1/10 Teaspoon cayenne pepper (red pepper) or to taste
8 oz water, room temperature
Combine the juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper in a 10 oz glass jar w/lid and fill with the water.
Shake it up and drink. (Cold water may be used if preferred.)
Use fresh (organic) lemons or limes only, never canned lemon or limejuice nor frozen lemonade or
frozen juice.

And i have to be on this for 10 days! It's not going to be easy but i have to do this. I'm thinking of starting tomorrow but that depends on if i have time to go to the store today or not.
Updates will be posted!