Sunday

Roommate finally mooving out today, i couldn't be happier to get my room back. Have been in this weekend since it has been raining. Friday night i went out with Olga and her very fun work mates, and it got a little dramatic at the end but we had a blast anyway. After that me and Olga went to a pub to relax and i got beer-educated by the extremly nice bartender. I really love Darling Harbour, it's the one place i Sydney i find cosy.

Well that and the beach, but the beach is just not the same here, i miss Santa Monica and the pier, the one that made me feel at home and the one that reminded me of the pier in Lost Boys. I really miss that. Standing under the pier and watching the waves and the sunset.

I don't know where my place is anymore, right now i just wanna go home, but on the other hand i could live on the beaches of Bahamas or even in Santa monica, as long as it is by the beach. Or in Boston, where i really feel at home. I just can't figure out my life and what i want. I guess despite my fear of the water i am drawn to it in the end. I just wish i could see somthing clearly, i wanna work in event but that is right now, what will i want in a year? I change my mind so much and i can't help it. But i am passionate about the ideas i have, but then it fades. I have to figure out what i want. But what i really want is to live on some empty beach with my soulmate for the rest of our lives, but i can't ignore the world, i can't live outside of it, i somehow have to find a place in it and that is the biggest problem for me, i'm not sure i want a place in it. I mean in the end i already have what's most important to me...Roy.